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The Beast with Two Heads (Or just two faces).

2 May

 

I always find it interesting when dealing with other people in the the same general industry.  By “interesting”, I mean what I like to call the “two headed beast”.  This is also commonly referred to as “two faced”.  You cannot be on a project without catching wind or being told of something that someone’s friend of a Brother’s Mother of your Cousin’s friend said about you.  When in all actuality it’s most likely one of your friends at your side or a colleague that said the damn thing.  This is the nature of human beings.  One of the toughest things in the world is to find someone who is genuine and doesn’t feel threatened by you or your accomplishments.

There comes a time in one’s project or projects where you may do something right and reach a goal or gain a tad bit of notoriety.  This is really when the “beasts” come out!  Over the past week, I personally, have been dealing with individuals within our own little film community of Portland, say things about myself and the projects which I have created.  These people range from close friends to colleagues to people I haven’t even met.  While some have offered up wonderful support, there are still those that feel it necessary to “put down” a project.  This would not be to big of an issue if these same people hadn’t already said, in some way shape or form, to me that they love what I, myself, am doing.  Henceforth, two faced.

The other issue at hand is when, once again, your own friends and colleagues don’t tell you or make you aware of things that are being said or done.  It’s always easy for someone to bitch…let alone when it isn’t directly to you.  They don’t have to deal with confrontation, blow back, etc.  The funny things is…could they ever do what you do?  Now…since we’re speaking of film at the moment, this is what I mention.  Could they be a show runner?  Can they produce?  Can they even write?  Most likely the answer is no.  So..before one opens their mouth…one should think how far their words will travel.  If you truly have issues with something, go to the person directly.  Don’t act as if you are back in junior high school.  I cannot stress this enough about Portland.  I will back up anything I say and will never be afraid to tell someone how I feel if asked.

Another massive issue that I have dealt with and hear about constantly is when people leave or step away from a project.  Now, some people don’t mesh and some see things different, creatively.  But, once again, two faces turn many a time.  Someone will step away from something only to talk insane amounts of “smack” about the project, people, or whatever.  Is this necessary?  Do you feel the need to discredit the others that are working on something that they may carry a ton of passion for?  This isn’t fucking Hollywood.  They’re aren’t five producers and four exec. producers all needing to compromise on input.  This is indie film.  And PORTLAND WILL NEVER BE HOLLYWOOD!  Stop acting like things need to be done so precise!  If you want to go film something, go film it.  If you want to offer your time and do something for someone for free, go do it!  Stop bitching people!  Just because Joe Schmoe got Jane Doe to use their RED for free doesn’t give you any right to sit in your clique at Starbucks and talk crap about that project.  If Wally Mcwallerson got a film location because they knew somebody…awesome!  You don’t need to jabber on about it.

Fact is…too many people here are ridiculously insecure with either their abilities or their projects.  And the size of egos within this town is stupidly…well…stupid!  If you have nothing to show for your work, then don’t go around saying you charge $400 for a day rate.  Don’t piss on emerging talent just because they haven’t been on “Grimm” or “Leverage”.  And we won;t even get started on the individuals who are charging money for “services” in this town!  I will plug Ryan Menard here and say that the free collective acting class you head is awesome, sir!  It’s how every other acting class should be done!  Free and with good company and those wanting to learn and have fun!

Once again, just writing this opens me up to the exact people I have talked about today.  So…I cannot wait to hear “what’s wrong with me”.  It’s cool though….because I have made some amazing new friends that fully support all of my endeavors.  From Portland to LA, some of these individuals will be life long friends.  Already, the kind words and genuine personalities of people like Barry Morgan, Helenna Santos Levy, Leah Cevoli, Drew Garrettson, Luis Garcia, Courtney Zito, Meg Gamez, Cindy Lemas, Katie Michels, Dennis Fitzpatrick, and Aris Juson have helped me get through this last week and I know will be rocks in the coming months ahead.  I thank you all for your kind words, respect, and friendship!

Genuine people for the win!

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